Life lately has just been a bowl of cherries

I just want to start out with depression sucks! Life lately has just
been a bowl full of cherries! I've been hurt by so many
people since Julia has entered our lives. The first big blow came when
a letter came in the mail about a month after Julia came home from the
hospital. It was a termination letter from my job stating I had no
more FMLA left. A job I was promised would be there no matter what
when I was ready to return. To make matters worse I worked for a
church so I thought that would get me somewhere. It's the same church
I attend every week. The only thing that has changed is the ministers
I worked under were transferred out of state. They were wonderful to
us and even left a letter stating my situation for the new people. I
am still so hurt that they terminated me. But wait it doesn't end there!

I live in this dumpy 2 bdrm apartment on the 2nd and 3rd floor with a
very steep set of stairs, well 2 actually. Anyway we've been working
on getting out of here into something bigger. But due to my lack of
income we can't afford much. So we applied for some affordable
housing. They lose the friggin application. I called so many times to
check on it and no one ever bothered to call me back. Eventually I
found some email addresses of the top big wigs and emailed them.
Bingo! I got a call back but I had to start all over again. In the
mean time we've been to several places to get help and been turned
away because my husband has an income. We'd be better off if he didn't
work!!!! The we'd get help. My own church even said they couldn't help
us because they felt the old ministers helped us too much. Can you say
OUCH again? So I no longer even want to attend the church because I'm
fuming inside.

Finally we got Julia approved for Katie Beckett insurance for
chronically ill children to help with our co-pays. One positive step
forward it only took several months.

In the beginning of August we got a letter from the housing company
saying we had to pay off our debt that was in collections before they
would process our application further. Okay so we paid it in full and
sent them proof. Today they called and said our landlord stated on the
reference form that we habitually paid our rent late. We yeah DUH! We
have a medical hardship and we're trying to get ahead! It would be a
big help to get into the affordable housing we applied for. Nope they
said we didn't meet their qualifications and turned us down!!! SO now
what??? I was pissed and called the landlord and asked why he gave us
a bad reference. We've always told him when we'd be late and always
paid our rent when we said we would. So he's willing to write them a
letter. But is it too little too late? Why can't we get help when we
need it? We are completely falling through the cracks in the system.
And then add my depression on top of it all.

Okay I feel little better.